Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road

Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go

So make the best of this test, and don't ask why

It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind

Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time

Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial

For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

Come On

And finally the silence

Looking out, looking back across the sky

Trying to find a meaning

Knowing that I just left it all behind

Still I smell a lingering softness

Where did she go, how did she go

I wanna wanna know

I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Come on

Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me

Come on, you know that we belong

Come on, come on, come on, come on

Thinking back before her

I never knew the meaning of alone

Still the flag is feeling foreign

I live the day to escape into a phone

Speaking of a world not real then

Where did she go, how did she go

I wanna wanna know

I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Cause shes sharp for kisses

And my heart misses

She's coming,

She's coming here to me

I'm needing

Desiring to kiss her now

I'm living for her

Breathing for her

Singing for her fairytale

Come on..

What the Freak's the Matter With Me???

hi...
got home 'round 830 today...
just had my dinner...

i really don't know what's gotten into me...
i feel so low.., down and lonely...
empty...

was it because of the song i heard this afternoon???
was it because it reminded of a movie???
a movie about a good love story...
a movie that could move you..,
and kind'a make your heart melt...
was it really beacuse of that song
and the movie linked to it???
maybe... i just don't quite know...

maybe it's because i really am empty...
perhaps the 'other' me is somehow
making it's way through my day...
maybe.., just maybe..,
i'm tired of living this life...
this lonely life...
i'm tired of being alone...
(parang kanta un ah.?! hehe...)

but what could i do???
i haven't found 'her' yet...
haven't crossed roads with 'her'...
or have i???
maybe 'she's' just somewhere...
'round there, by the corner...
perhaps i have seen 'her'..,
we may have been acquianted..,
i could've passed 'her' on the sidewalk..,
could i have missed my chance...
(parang kanta ulit un ah.?!)

still... how do i know it's 'her'???
how would i know that it's time to take action???
that it's for 'her'... that it's now or never???

well i guess that song really got me..?
maybe that 'love bug' bit me..?
but hey..! how could that be.?!
i ain't in love..!
and besides..,
i am nothing more than a freak...
i am me..!
empty...

Remember... Recall...

it's only wednesday
yet i seem to have forgotten
my past weekend...
argh.. guess my memory's turning low now...

just try to recall...

Saturday...
hadn't been of much help at home...
woke up late.., 'til lunch that is...
just hanged round our house...
couldn't remember things i did to pass time...
i was useful at one moment..,
went to a water station and refilled
two 5 gallon containers for our drinking water...
(i asked my mom what i did that day, that's what she said)
aside from that.., i guess i did nothing more...

Sunday...
woke up late again...
if it hadn't been for my mom calling
and asking me to open our house's door for her..,
i would've woken up later...
did nothing fruitful again...
ate quite a late breakfast at an aunt's place...
(mom and aunt aren't in good terms...
a family friend that is a nun was trying to fix the problem...
that's why we were asked to eat at my aunt's place..)
well i that encounter didn't fix things up...
(how'd you expect a problem that has been going on
for 2 years be settled with just one sitting..????)
o well.., after taking a meal...
we (mom and me) drove off to Baliuag...
today's objective...; to buy a washing machine...
we've bargained on different appliance stores...
but after a whole afternoon of searching and bargaining...,
we came home empty handed... haha...

Monday....
my kind'a usual 'working' day...
err... should i call it 'office' day...
(can't consider things as work yet...)
i've tried something on these days...
different from what i usually do on my home...
boarding the 630 bus to Baliuag at the park square station..,
and arriving home 'round 9 - 930...
well for a change... i took the MRT..,
got off at the Araneta station..,
took an 'FX' (which was really a van and not an FX)
to Baliuag... and guess what the difference i did made..??!!
i came home about an hour earlier than usual..!
mom's kind'a surprised last monday...
me arriving home.., and she hadn't prepared dinner yet...
but it was okay... got more time to spend at home now...
than spending it on the road aboard a bus...

Tuesday...
same as yesterday... 'office' day...
but i encountered quite a minor problem...
(which could be a serious one., hadn't it been for luck..)
my MS word application broke down..
and i thought i've lost all the documents that i have been working on...
but for some stoke of luck... i was able to recover not one...
not two... but all of documents..!
all it took was a few restarts... and patience...
see.. 'patience is a virtue..!' hehe...

upon arriving home...
mom and i made some pictorials on our yard...
just to capture our decorations...
and have something to send to my dad...
and show him what our yard looked like last Christmas..,
and what came out of mom's construction 'projects'...

well.. that's what i can only recall...
oh.. one more thing... was able to save a few bucks
last Monday and Tuesday... found this really cheap lunch...
now that's something good to tell about... hehe...

thanks for reading...!Ü

Nice Thing About Yesterday

hello..!
just wanna share a thing 'bout yesterday..
it wasn't just another ordinary day...
wanna know why???

i was boarding a bus... when..
i messaged my mom that
i'm on my way home,
and asked what's for dinner...

she told me that she's at her friend's birthday celebration...
and that i'd better go there and have my dinner there..

so.. that was where i went...
met the celebrant and her visitors...

that's when everything became un-ordinary...

met two good-looking ladies..! hehe...
they were her (celebrant) neices...
one of them was the one that i really liked...
she's just soooo pretty... though she's kind'a too slim...
and really looks younger than her age...
the other... well...
it was just our first meeting...
didn't even know her name nor her age..
but damn she's pretty too..!
she's fleshy.., and really looks good when she smiles...
one thing in common with them...??
their both light-complexioned..,
and there's something about their faces
that i really like...
perhaps the cheeks..,
maybe the eyes..,
maybe the lips...
i don't know what...
but what i'm sure of is that..
they're too pretty..!

unfortunately...
i never did have the chance to chat with them..

i was not formally aquianted with them..

and that they hanged 'round with their cousins...
(their cousins are close friends of ours)
oh well...

guess i've only got a slim chance of seeing them again...
and to get close and hang with them...
on thursday... they'd be going back to australia...
to the place where they kind'a grew up...
far from here.... away from here...

Just Another Ordinary Day

day is almost over..
spent it again in the office..
but at least i did something of worth today...
just did a job for our internal project...

but before that tasks was given..,
well.. you would see the usual me...
the non-working me...
blankly staring at the monitor
as if i was reading something...
hehe...

nothing unusual happened...
no thoughts to share as of now...
no stories to tell...
t'was just a plain day...
quite a simple day...

oh.. but there's something new..
just knew aboput an officemate today..
just don't know if we'd be in better terms...
but we've quite interacted...
but just on the messenger though..,
not personally...

oh well...
gotta go..
office hours' almost over...
i'll be on my home again..,
hope i'll come earlier than usual...

NEW YEAR'S BREAK

back to work again...
no more vacations and holidays to expect..
'til the holy week comes..

had a very hectic vacation..

last 30th of december,
grandma's cousin celebrated her
65th birthday at our place..
had to prepare this and that..
fix things in and around the house..

the party started at lunch..
and ended quite late at night...
don't really know what time
coz i went out with my H.S. friends..
just tried to catch up with each other..
with a couple of chows and beer...
went home round 2am and slept..

last 31st... woke up early..
put-up a table by the 'tiangge' nearby..
tried to sell some fireworks and crackers
with a cousin...
(kinda' business minded)
after that selling thing..
restored the order of our yard..,
kept the tables and chairs
which were used at yesterday's party...

after lunch, went to Baliuag
stopped by an atm.. got some cash of course..
my mom and sis bought some groceries for our 'media noche'..
i together with a neighbor looked for some 'kalburo'
(those gray stones that react with water)..
by the time we got home..
bought some 'bumbong ng kawayan' fit enough to make a cannon...
sawed and holed it for hours...
got pretty exhausted.. but it was worth it..!

new year's eve was fun...
saw amazing fireworks in the sky..
heard a whole lot of bangs from crackers...
and ahem... my cannon really made a bang..
neighbors can't believe it was JUST a 'bumbong'..

JANUARY 1st..! happy new year..!
woke up past noon... at last caught some sleep..!
had a late lunch at home...
a cousin messaged me and we met up at our aunt's place..
had a second round of lunch...
a shabu-shabu... jimenez-garcia clan style...
had a good 'seafood soup', (don't know what to call it)
some roast beef steak, a fried salmon, some salmon sausages,
a glass or two of rich red wine...
and to top it all of... a yummy tiramisu..!
all of which were prepared by my cousins...
that meal stuffed me and really made my day..!

i was set to drive for my sister and her H.S. friends...
gonna watch a movie and kinda hang-out with them...
unfortunately.., a change of plans came in...
mom called and we'd be going to Pampanga...
so.. my sister and i just fetched her friends
and they just hanged round our place...

i drove the whole afternoon... and still til evening...
arrived at fontana at around 7pm...
being there ain't that bad at all..
got to eat up, hang with cousins (mom's side)..
and an allowance.., c/o my uncle...
thought we'd be going to the casino...
but unfortunately.., we didn't...
my mom played mahjong
together with her sister, 'hipag', and aunt..
my uncle and his three sons just played cards all night 'til 3 i think...
me..? well... to kill the time...
played scrabble with my cousin's wife...
slept at round 2am...

JANUARY 2nd... yawn..!
woke up early... 7:30am that is..
ate a couple of bread slices and a meat loaf..
drove home that early...
fixed my self up then drove again...
back to Pampanga.. but this time to my
sister-in-law's place...
to meet her family and formally ask for her hand..
(though they already got married)
'pamamanhikan' as we call it..
had lunch there and stayed for a couple of hours...

after that...
drove for my sister to her boarding house
at valenzuela...
it was quite a long drive in NLEX,
and a boring one...
all you see is the same sight of greenery...
driving at an almost constant speed...
yawn...
well at least there was no traffic jam...

almost there...
when the topic was about my brother...
tried not to speak... but unluckily..
from nowhere... i blurted out things...
feelings that i have been long keeping..
the unequality i see at home...
my brother being my mom's favored child...
responsibilities, tasks, and chores that my brother evaded...
my anger 'bout my his selfish act..,
of getting married..
him of trying to cut his ties with our family...
him of forgetting that he too has a responsibility
for our parents... that he'd have to help
save up for mom and dad's old age...
the we'd have to let them have a taste of the
'GOOD LIFE'...
BUT.. COULD THAT BE POSSIBLE NOW..???!!
WILL HE BE OF ANY HELP NOW..??!!!
now that he was married and soon be having a baby????

i guess i just lost the brother i once knew...
or maybe.., that responsible brother i had was just
my wishful thinking... that i never really had 'one'...

was really exhausted..
had just a few hours of sleep...
been behind the wheel
for almost the whole day...

got home at 'round 8pm...
fixed myself for bed...
and at long last went to sleep...

JANUARY 3rd... HAPPY BIRHTDAY GRANDMA..!
now... i'm here sitting by my
workstation at the offfice..
it'll be a long day...
quite a long day...