My so-called 'L.I.F.E.'

sigh...
it's monday again, and how i dislike mondays..! well at least i've only got to go to work for just three days today. it's holy week, and at long last, a longer vacation..!

had a chat with an old friend yesterday. it sure was fun to look back at the past and laugh at things that used to be serious. along with that conversation, we tackled on you know... that 'L.O.V.E.' thing... me still being alone... no girlfriend, no flings, no flirts, no special lady... nothing. not even a 'LIFE'...

why???

'coz my day's a routine. wake up at half past four, prepare myself, take a two and a half ride to work. get stuck in front of a computer for 8 long hours or so, then another two and a half hour ride for home, eat my dinner, watch a little t.v. then sleep...

this is what i do for five days in a row. it only varies when i fail to wake up that early, then i would have to take a train to work. aside from that, nothing more...

'tignan mo, pare, pano ka magkkagirlfriend nyan???'

what a question right??? i ask my self that too... well i guess it's a matter of priority... for now i'm into saving up.., if not spending for myself. and besides.., i do believe i have this 2-by-2 curse... in love for two years, then no love for the next, then in love again, then nothing... well it's a cycle actually... so for this year until the up coming year.., it's no love for me... just my plain old alone me... will that curse fade??? i don't know... who knows right?!?

anyway.., i've got to go... have to do my job now... geesh.., and i thought i'll be a software engineer.., but i turned out to be a 'reverse engineer'... at least there's that 'engineer' word.. hehe.. so.. 'till next blog...

Today..!

sheesh...
have to stay overtime today...
got some deliverables to accomplish for tomorrow...

how'd i get the time to blog???
well.., got to kill time 'til i receive the
final comment on my task
before the final consolidation...

something new??? something to tell???
well... none i guess...
except that i discovered this kiosk...
thank GOD for this kiosk..!
'cause my pc has been transfered to another network
where there were a lot of restrictions...
and i dare not try to surf the net for
i may enter some sites that are prohibited...

o well.. gotta go...
oh.. one more thing...,
i was glad that i was able to divert my thoughts from
the 'EMPTINESS' that i think am feeling...
thank the project for such a busy day...
hehe...

though comes afew moments
that reality bites me...

really.., i have to go...
'til then..!

What the freak.??!!??

what's with me..?
why do i feel this again.?
am i empty..?
do i really long for somebody now..?
who could that be???

i've already narrowed my world now...
i've avoided going out at nights...
kept from hanging around...
made myself busy with home movies,
my guitar, and sleep...
locked myself at home...
deprived myself of messengers and friendster...
pulled me out of the 'big-wide-world'
and just mingled with my tiny circles of friends...
(though they don't seem to care anymore..)

i wouldn't want my mind to be floating around again...
wondrin' of a person who doesn't even care that i exist...
never again would i make a fool of myself for such a shallow cause...

but why do feel this way now???
has cold finally taken it's toll..?
am i really empty..???

what a weekend..!

Friday...
its holiday...
19th anniv of the edsa revolution...
so as expected..,
i stayed in bed 'til an hour past lunch...
and glued my self to home movies...

i was quite unproductive...
except that i drove my sister to the supermaket...
and that's all there was on my friday...

Saturday...
wke up early... had to go to the office...
were kinda rushing things there...
came in at 7:30 and left at 7...
so nothing much to tell 'bout that day...

Sunday... at last..!
the day i've been waiting for...
why you may ask..??
well we have this some kinda 'reunion' with my Jimenez clan...
was looking forward to it...
though i didn't expect that we were that 'BIG'..,
and still with others missing...
met some relatives...
got to mingle with them for a little...
t'was only then when i knew that i was one
of the youngest in our generation...
and those others who are at my age bracket
were my nieces and nephews... sheesh..!

had a great fun that day...
in the late afternoon,
had a 'jammin' session with my brother and my cousin priest...
others just sang along...

was really glad that day...
meeting those people within my family tree...
wish i could keep in touch with them...
and kinda hang-out with them...
oh well.. gotta go...
had to get my task done...