Boredom in the Office

hello..!
it's been quite a while huh..?!
but still i got nothing new to say...
except that i've been assigned to a project..
and guess what..? it's in ortigas...
and worst.., it's a COBOL based project...
had to read, analyze and document
such codes which are quite long and complicated...
sigh...

been spending most of my weekend
watching movies at home...
still life's the same...
with no one special...
quite a bore huh..??
but hey..! i'm happier this way..!
i think...

well let's just say that i'm quite content
with a life of less complication and thoughts..,
nights when i can sleep soundly
thinking nothing 'bout any emotion...
i'm in that state called 'worry-free'..!
got to spend my little earnings for myself..
and use more phone credits for my family and other important deals
rather than spending it on 'senseless communication'...

i know... i know...
you're thinking that i am just being bitter...
that i've cursed that so-called 'blissful feeling'
for i've been downed by it...

but you know what..?!
i ain't being bitter.., am just being practical...
am just letting my brain rule than being ruled by my heart...
well you see.., i do believe that there's a time for everything...
so why rush into being in love when the present time calls
for self-awareness and self-care...
i mean.., do love yourself first
than loving anybody else while forgetting about yourself...
right??!

and besides...
why narrow yourself down on to one person..,
when you aren't even sure if such deed is being reciprocated...
why sure it is nice to be in love... but ain't it better
when you are loved back.???

there's a whole big world out there...
why focus on just one person...
it is the picture that is to be seen and appreciated..,
not the detail that comprises it...

ps.
i don't know if this makes sense, it's what's running in my mind as of the moment i'm doing this... just feel free to give me a question, comment, or violent reaction... yo know how to reach me... hehe... enjoy your day..!Ü