If Only

well.. here i am again..
with thoughts flying by...
heard a song just a while ago..
and i can't help but remember a moment of my past...

'i love you, always forever'
was the title...

well i do believe i had this thought for a girl..
unfortunately.., it remained as a thought
and was never able to blurt it...
'til the feeling was lost... or as i so believe..

but i guess there were times
when i missed the feeling of longing for her...
i miss the days when i bought chocolates for her...
those times i spent digging for mushy quotes to send...
the idea of being sweet and gentle...
the feeling that i was 'in love'...

it wasn't my fault that i lost the feeling...
that i've moved on..,
and hid the 'man' in me...

it's a good thing i wasn't able to utter it..;
'i love you, always... forever.'
for i guess i don't feel it now...
yet she'll remain special...

if only she showed some appreciation for my feelings...
if only she didn't ignore the love i showed and offered her...
if she hadn't been cold...
if only... if only....
if only she loved me too....

i would've never lost the feeling...
i would've never tried to lose it...
i would've kept loving her..,
i could've been spending my time with her..,
and kept the my love aflame...
and held onto the phrase..;
'i love you, always... forever.'

if only... if only...
if only she dared to care...