My Sunday Hassle

good monday..!
(though it ain't that good)
hehe...

woke up early today...
made it to my usual bus...
came to the office at my usual time...

am beginning to feel a bit drowsy again..
maybe because i've got colds...
but this is nothing compared to what i felt yesterday...

it was sunday... woke up early to attend mass...
ate breakfast at a family friend's house...
it's when everything started...

had this terrible headache along with a fever...
thought i could sleep it off..,
so i slept with pajama, shirt and socks on...
covered myself with a blanket, turned off my fan..
and placed alcohol-soaked cotton balls in my underarm...
to release the rising temperature in my body due to this pesky cold virus...

woke up an hour or two after...
unluckily.., the headache didn't come off..,
but my temperature went down...
thought i'd sneeze myself to release those yucky gooey 'sipon'...
it did lighten my feeling.., but still it worries me...

to make things worst..,
chores are to be done...
our deepwell pump brokedown..,
and provided a very black murky water... 'burak..!'
so our household won't be having water for a couple of days
'til our deepwell is fixed
so... i fecthed water from our neighbor...
filled up two containers that can hold up to 120 kgs of water each...
(imagine how many times would i have to go back and forth to fetch water)
and i'm doing this while having that pesky headache...,
i could even consider it as a migrane...

but before that fetching spree...
my big brother came back home...
he hasn't came home for quite sometime now..
maybe because he's trying to save up...
(he works in a casino in pampanga)...
well.., i was quite glad that he came home..,
at least maybe he could lend a hand on some chores...

so while eating lunch with my family...
(daddy not included.., he's in california..)
a news came up.., my brother just got married.., civil...
i don't know if it was just a sick joke... i hope it is...
but by the tone of my brother... he isn't kidding...
i definitely did not feel good about it...

how could he ever do such a thing to our family...
getting married without the knowing of our parents...
'ate: ba't d mo man lang sinabi kila mommy?
kuya: kaya nga secret marriage eh...'

i mean... what kind of a devil drove my brother's mind..
that he had decided to marry.., in such an early age..!!!

he was quite a dreamer back then...
he planned his future...
'if i were to marry, i should already have my own house,
a big savings account, a car, and a stable job..'
those were the words he told me when i asked him
when we were both in college...
i somehow looked up to him then...
but where was that dreamer.., that planner i knew..????

what he only achieved now was a car...
that is on monthly installment.., with years to fully pay for it...
though his job can sustain it and a few of his wants..,
will it be enough to house and raise a family..???
and besides.., he only knew the girl for just a little over a year...
so how the heck did he know that she was the 'one'..???

he wasn't even able to help mom and dad save up for their old age...
he didn't even think of fulfilling our parents' dreams of having a really good life..
yes.., he hands over a few bucks to my mom for some expenses..,
but now that he is married.., will he still give some..???
that i don't know...

i know that i ain't in the position to yack and nag at my big brother...
to tell him of things... to show him his faults...
to display my disappointments...
to say what he did was wrong and unjust on our parents...
but i just hope that he'd realize it...

but all is too late...
he had a civil wedding as he have said on our dining table...

i just hope it was a joke...
a very sick joke...