Thoughts From a Fool: On Friendship

A friend accepts you despite your flaws.

A true friend accepts you and comments your faults

to help you become a better person.

What now..?

So you've graduated and have been employed.
So you earn your cash to spend at last.
Is it enough, are you content..?

You got a raise but not that much.
You've got a job with little task.
So tell me, do you enjoy it..?

All this time you've got your friends.
But where are they..?
What hapeened..?

You banged the door and cried out loud.
Then again, nobody's home.
What now..? What's next..?

You'd like to go out, you want to chill.
Take a break and see a reel.
So you go alone. How does it feel..?

You're single and all alone.
You smile and seem to enjoy it though.
But could you be happy despite being empty..?

All your life you've paid a cost.
All those years, time was lost.
Tell me, was it all to waste..?

We've all got something to look forward to.
Yet everything has it's own end too.
It ain't how long, how far, or how fast the journey was.
It's about how you did, what you did,
And all the mem'ries that you'll leave.

Thoughts From a Fool: On Death

Death is a natural thing that'll come to everyone,

be not afraid of it. The moment it gets you,

you have served your life's worth.

Be ashamed to die until

you have won something for humanity.

Thoughts From a Fool: On Contentment

Expectations and hopes simply cause disappointment..,

contentment and satisfaction brings joy.

A person asking for nothing more

is a person of no frustration.

Thoughts From a Fool: On Ways of Life

Isn't it weird how people rush their lives as if on a race..,

and yet they'd do everything for a delay..?

Thoughts From a Fool: On Dreams

Dreams are nothing but illusions

materializing from your thoughts,

feeding on your hopes...

Confusing you with the comfort of fantasy

and agony of reality...

Quite a While Huh????

it's been ages right???
well I'm back, yet still no updates 'bout me...
just the same old me, single and carefree...
as if i'd give a damn 'bout it..!Ü

yep, i'm back in makati now.., MSE to be exact...
been here for some two months now...
and still go home to bulacan everyday...

something's bothering now...
not quite sure what...
heck it ain't something 'bout me being single.., 'coz as what i've said...
'i don't give a damn 'bout it.'
i think it's me not being content with my current job/work...
i'm feeling what others do... "overworked"..!
yes i'm just a newbie in this part of life...
but being a neophyte doesn't mean that i must be overworked
and get underpaid...
and i'm being stuck it this life's so-called 'rat race'...
laboring hard for an amount just enough for my subsistence...
i know, you feel this too... heck, most people do..!

here's an observation on freakin' commuting life...

have you ever walked from greenbelt to the train station via landmark, glorietta, and sm??? don't you find security checks and bag checks on the landmark-glorietta second floor-border, and glorietta-sm second floor-border quite useless.?! right.., they are pointless..! i mean could there be another securityless-point of entry when passing through this border??? none..! they just another point of delays..! there was even this time that people are jammed on the escalator, the one heading for the glorietta-sm second floor-border, and yet the security guards kept yelling that "isang linya lang po"... heck.., people are already colliding like pieces of dominoes on the escalator upper-landing and they'd still want to keep a single file??! HOW INDIFFERENT! HOW NAIVE!

have you experienced boarding the train during rush hours..?
a train provided by a company that say's that their purpose is to be of good service...
well if they really are to serve, they shouldn't care much about their profit...
i mean, why can't they do proper adjustments in their trains' time during rush hour
so as to avoid crowding..? a train every minute or two on the stations ain't that much of a cost...
but it sure is a lot to people's ease and convenience...
but if the train company can't make something 'bout this.., why not try to impliment a some kind of displine on the stations... like by making passengers queue..? this way crowding, jamming (and even slamming!) while trying to board can be avoided... one more thing, just an observation.., but this has nothing to do with the train administration... why can't men sacrifice to offer seats to the ladies..? i mean, the train ride is just a few minutes (half an hour the most), then why can't they just stand.., when we all know that most ladies boarding the train at rush hours wear those high-heeled shoes that's quite an agony for the feet when standing on a prolonged period of time... where are your manners dude???!!!!

oh well.., i've got'ta go... but i'm telling you.., there's more to come... until then..!Ü

Hello Again..!

haha... long time no blog..!
it's been ages and still got nothing to say...

except that i was able to save lieu hours enough to give me a two week vacation...
unluckily i ain't allowed to use them consecutively... oh well..
at least i got a few days-off once in a while...

it's summer, and still haven't gone to the beach...
not even to a pool resort..!
it's been ages since i last went out with college friends...

mom, once told me that i should get a body massage for at least twice a month...
sure.... but that'll cost me some good bucks...

my sis-in-law is now 5 month pregnant..,
a few more weeks and we'd know if it's a boy or girl...
which reminds me..,
I wonder if my couz' delivered her baby now...

new 'bout me???
nothing... still single, and doesn't give a damn about it...
come what may.., come those who dare...
haha...

My so-called 'L.I.F.E.'

sigh...
it's monday again, and how i dislike mondays..! well at least i've only got to go to work for just three days today. it's holy week, and at long last, a longer vacation..!

had a chat with an old friend yesterday. it sure was fun to look back at the past and laugh at things that used to be serious. along with that conversation, we tackled on you know... that 'L.O.V.E.' thing... me still being alone... no girlfriend, no flings, no flirts, no special lady... nothing. not even a 'LIFE'...

why???

'coz my day's a routine. wake up at half past four, prepare myself, take a two and a half ride to work. get stuck in front of a computer for 8 long hours or so, then another two and a half hour ride for home, eat my dinner, watch a little t.v. then sleep...

this is what i do for five days in a row. it only varies when i fail to wake up that early, then i would have to take a train to work. aside from that, nothing more...

'tignan mo, pare, pano ka magkkagirlfriend nyan???'

what a question right??? i ask my self that too... well i guess it's a matter of priority... for now i'm into saving up.., if not spending for myself. and besides.., i do believe i have this 2-by-2 curse... in love for two years, then no love for the next, then in love again, then nothing... well it's a cycle actually... so for this year until the up coming year.., it's no love for me... just my plain old alone me... will that curse fade??? i don't know... who knows right?!?

anyway.., i've got to go... have to do my job now... geesh.., and i thought i'll be a software engineer.., but i turned out to be a 'reverse engineer'... at least there's that 'engineer' word.. hehe.. so.. 'till next blog...

Today..!

sheesh...
have to stay overtime today...
got some deliverables to accomplish for tomorrow...

how'd i get the time to blog???
well.., got to kill time 'til i receive the
final comment on my task
before the final consolidation...

something new??? something to tell???
well... none i guess...
except that i discovered this kiosk...
thank GOD for this kiosk..!
'cause my pc has been transfered to another network
where there were a lot of restrictions...
and i dare not try to surf the net for
i may enter some sites that are prohibited...

o well.. gotta go...
oh.. one more thing...,
i was glad that i was able to divert my thoughts from
the 'EMPTINESS' that i think am feeling...
thank the project for such a busy day...
hehe...

though comes afew moments
that reality bites me...

really.., i have to go...
'til then..!

What the freak.??!!??

what's with me..?
why do i feel this again.?
am i empty..?
do i really long for somebody now..?
who could that be???

i've already narrowed my world now...
i've avoided going out at nights...
kept from hanging around...
made myself busy with home movies,
my guitar, and sleep...
locked myself at home...
deprived myself of messengers and friendster...
pulled me out of the 'big-wide-world'
and just mingled with my tiny circles of friends...
(though they don't seem to care anymore..)

i wouldn't want my mind to be floating around again...
wondrin' of a person who doesn't even care that i exist...
never again would i make a fool of myself for such a shallow cause...

but why do feel this way now???
has cold finally taken it's toll..?
am i really empty..???

what a weekend..!

Friday...
its holiday...
19th anniv of the edsa revolution...
so as expected..,
i stayed in bed 'til an hour past lunch...
and glued my self to home movies...

i was quite unproductive...
except that i drove my sister to the supermaket...
and that's all there was on my friday...

Saturday...
wke up early... had to go to the office...
were kinda rushing things there...
came in at 7:30 and left at 7...
so nothing much to tell 'bout that day...

Sunday... at last..!
the day i've been waiting for...
why you may ask..??
well we have this some kinda 'reunion' with my Jimenez clan...
was looking forward to it...
though i didn't expect that we were that 'BIG'..,
and still with others missing...
met some relatives...
got to mingle with them for a little...
t'was only then when i knew that i was one
of the youngest in our generation...
and those others who are at my age bracket
were my nieces and nephews... sheesh..!

had a great fun that day...
in the late afternoon,
had a 'jammin' session with my brother and my cousin priest...
others just sang along...

was really glad that day...
meeting those people within my family tree...
wish i could keep in touch with them...
and kinda hang-out with them...
oh well.. gotta go...
had to get my task done...

Office Hell-week

hello again..!
wodrin' why this entry's titled that way???

i call this wek a hell-week for haven't got enough sleep...
i had to stay at the office overtime...
had to finish tasks that are due on that very same day...

last tuesday...
left the office at i think 'round 8:30...
guess what.., i came home 'round 10:30...

yerterday.., that's wednesday...
woke up at about 6 am... then
left the office at around 10:30...
and got home at shocking 12 in the midnight..!
compared to my team-mates.., that's early...
they left at midnight..

today...
woke up 'round 6:30 am...
i don't know if i'll be goin home late...
maybe not anymore..
for i have finished what's due for today...

so what do i do now???
i'll be picking up those tasks that
i have dropped a week ago.

o well....
at least i won't have to work overtime...

My Job.... sigh...

hi..! it's been a while huh..?!
wondrin how i got the time to blog again eh.!?

well.., i'm stuck here at the office...
no task, no job, no nothing...
just finished doing them...
so why am still here you may ask..
am here waitin for some comments on it...

oopss gotta go.. got to finish this na..
just received the comment...

adios..!

Boredom in the Office

hello..!
it's been quite a while huh..?!
but still i got nothing new to say...
except that i've been assigned to a project..
and guess what..? it's in ortigas...
and worst.., it's a COBOL based project...
had to read, analyze and document
such codes which are quite long and complicated...
sigh...

been spending most of my weekend
watching movies at home...
still life's the same...
with no one special...
quite a bore huh..??
but hey..! i'm happier this way..!
i think...

well let's just say that i'm quite content
with a life of less complication and thoughts..,
nights when i can sleep soundly
thinking nothing 'bout any emotion...
i'm in that state called 'worry-free'..!
got to spend my little earnings for myself..
and use more phone credits for my family and other important deals
rather than spending it on 'senseless communication'...

i know... i know...
you're thinking that i am just being bitter...
that i've cursed that so-called 'blissful feeling'
for i've been downed by it...

but you know what..?!
i ain't being bitter.., am just being practical...
am just letting my brain rule than being ruled by my heart...
well you see.., i do believe that there's a time for everything...
so why rush into being in love when the present time calls
for self-awareness and self-care...
i mean.., do love yourself first
than loving anybody else while forgetting about yourself...
right??!

and besides...
why narrow yourself down on to one person..,
when you aren't even sure if such deed is being reciprocated...
why sure it is nice to be in love... but ain't it better
when you are loved back.???

there's a whole big world out there...
why focus on just one person...
it is the picture that is to be seen and appreciated..,
not the detail that comprises it...

ps.
i don't know if this makes sense, it's what's running in my mind as of the moment i'm doing this... just feel free to give me a question, comment, or violent reaction... yo know how to reach me... hehe... enjoy your day..!Ü

Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road

Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go

So make the best of this test, and don't ask why

It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind

Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time

Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial

For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

Come On

And finally the silence

Looking out, looking back across the sky

Trying to find a meaning

Knowing that I just left it all behind

Still I smell a lingering softness

Where did she go, how did she go

I wanna wanna know

I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Come on

Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me

Come on, you know that we belong

Come on, come on, come on, come on

Thinking back before her

I never knew the meaning of alone

Still the flag is feeling foreign

I live the day to escape into a phone

Speaking of a world not real then

Where did she go, how did she go

I wanna wanna know

I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Cause shes sharp for kisses

And my heart misses

She's coming,

She's coming here to me

I'm needing

Desiring to kiss her now

I'm living for her

Breathing for her

Singing for her fairytale

Come on..

What the Freak's the Matter With Me???

hi...
got home 'round 830 today...
just had my dinner...

i really don't know what's gotten into me...
i feel so low.., down and lonely...
empty...

was it because of the song i heard this afternoon???
was it because it reminded of a movie???
a movie about a good love story...
a movie that could move you..,
and kind'a make your heart melt...
was it really beacuse of that song
and the movie linked to it???
maybe... i just don't quite know...

maybe it's because i really am empty...
perhaps the 'other' me is somehow
making it's way through my day...
maybe.., just maybe..,
i'm tired of living this life...
this lonely life...
i'm tired of being alone...
(parang kanta un ah.?! hehe...)

but what could i do???
i haven't found 'her' yet...
haven't crossed roads with 'her'...
or have i???
maybe 'she's' just somewhere...
'round there, by the corner...
perhaps i have seen 'her'..,
we may have been acquianted..,
i could've passed 'her' on the sidewalk..,
could i have missed my chance...
(parang kanta ulit un ah.?!)

still... how do i know it's 'her'???
how would i know that it's time to take action???
that it's for 'her'... that it's now or never???

well i guess that song really got me..?
maybe that 'love bug' bit me..?
but hey..! how could that be.?!
i ain't in love..!
and besides..,
i am nothing more than a freak...
i am me..!
empty...

Remember... Recall...

it's only wednesday
yet i seem to have forgotten
my past weekend...
argh.. guess my memory's turning low now...

just try to recall...

Saturday...
hadn't been of much help at home...
woke up late.., 'til lunch that is...
just hanged round our house...
couldn't remember things i did to pass time...
i was useful at one moment..,
went to a water station and refilled
two 5 gallon containers for our drinking water...
(i asked my mom what i did that day, that's what she said)
aside from that.., i guess i did nothing more...

Sunday...
woke up late again...
if it hadn't been for my mom calling
and asking me to open our house's door for her..,
i would've woken up later...
did nothing fruitful again...
ate quite a late breakfast at an aunt's place...
(mom and aunt aren't in good terms...
a family friend that is a nun was trying to fix the problem...
that's why we were asked to eat at my aunt's place..)
well i that encounter didn't fix things up...
(how'd you expect a problem that has been going on
for 2 years be settled with just one sitting..????)
o well.., after taking a meal...
we (mom and me) drove off to Baliuag...
today's objective...; to buy a washing machine...
we've bargained on different appliance stores...
but after a whole afternoon of searching and bargaining...,
we came home empty handed... haha...

Monday....
my kind'a usual 'working' day...
err... should i call it 'office' day...
(can't consider things as work yet...)
i've tried something on these days...
different from what i usually do on my home...
boarding the 630 bus to Baliuag at the park square station..,
and arriving home 'round 9 - 930...
well for a change... i took the MRT..,
got off at the Araneta station..,
took an 'FX' (which was really a van and not an FX)
to Baliuag... and guess what the difference i did made..??!!
i came home about an hour earlier than usual..!
mom's kind'a surprised last monday...
me arriving home.., and she hadn't prepared dinner yet...
but it was okay... got more time to spend at home now...
than spending it on the road aboard a bus...

Tuesday...
same as yesterday... 'office' day...
but i encountered quite a minor problem...
(which could be a serious one., hadn't it been for luck..)
my MS word application broke down..
and i thought i've lost all the documents that i have been working on...
but for some stoke of luck... i was able to recover not one...
not two... but all of documents..!
all it took was a few restarts... and patience...
see.. 'patience is a virtue..!' hehe...

upon arriving home...
mom and i made some pictorials on our yard...
just to capture our decorations...
and have something to send to my dad...
and show him what our yard looked like last Christmas..,
and what came out of mom's construction 'projects'...

well.. that's what i can only recall...
oh.. one more thing... was able to save a few bucks
last Monday and Tuesday... found this really cheap lunch...
now that's something good to tell about... hehe...

thanks for reading...!Ü

Nice Thing About Yesterday

hello..!
just wanna share a thing 'bout yesterday..
it wasn't just another ordinary day...
wanna know why???

i was boarding a bus... when..
i messaged my mom that
i'm on my way home,
and asked what's for dinner...

she told me that she's at her friend's birthday celebration...
and that i'd better go there and have my dinner there..

so.. that was where i went...
met the celebrant and her visitors...

that's when everything became un-ordinary...

met two good-looking ladies..! hehe...
they were her (celebrant) neices...
one of them was the one that i really liked...
she's just soooo pretty... though she's kind'a too slim...
and really looks younger than her age...
the other... well...
it was just our first meeting...
didn't even know her name nor her age..
but damn she's pretty too..!
she's fleshy.., and really looks good when she smiles...
one thing in common with them...??
their both light-complexioned..,
and there's something about their faces
that i really like...
perhaps the cheeks..,
maybe the eyes..,
maybe the lips...
i don't know what...
but what i'm sure of is that..
they're too pretty..!

unfortunately...
i never did have the chance to chat with them..

i was not formally aquianted with them..

and that they hanged 'round with their cousins...
(their cousins are close friends of ours)
oh well...

guess i've only got a slim chance of seeing them again...
and to get close and hang with them...
on thursday... they'd be going back to australia...
to the place where they kind'a grew up...
far from here.... away from here...